Does It Hurt? Review — Is It Worth Reading?

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Verdict: A shipwreck survival thriller with a band-5 enemies-to-lovers romance bolted to it, and the rare H.D. Carlton book that finishes in one volume — held back by a middle that readers consistently say drags.

Best for: Readers who want extreme heat inside a real suspense plot, who can spend two hundred pages with leads who are hard to like, and who want a dark romance that resolves.

Heat level: ★★★★★ (5/5 — romance.io’s top band, “Explicit and plentiful”)

Rating: ★★★★☆ (3.7/5 — a 3.88 Goodreads average across 286,156 ratings, with a middle a lot of readers wanted cut)

Kindle Unlimited: Included — verified on the Amazon product page on 21 August 2026.

Tropes: Forced proximity, enemies to lovers, survival and shipwreck, revenge, possessive hero, morally grey leads, dual POV, suspense, mystery, standalone.

Where this sits: Does It Hurt? is a male–female dark romance and belongs to our general Kindle Unlimited romance coverage, not our sapphic catalogue.

Does It Hurt? is H.D. Carlton’s 2022 standalone, and it is the book people reach for when they want Carlton without the commitment — a dark romance that strands a fugitive identity thief and the man hunting her on an abandoned island, then spends 432 pages finding out which of them breaks first.

It has 286,156 Goodreads ratings at a 3.88 average, 4.2 on Amazon across roughly 86,361, and 3.78 on StoryGraph with a 3% did-not-finish rate. The reviews underneath those numbers split harder than the average suggests, and they split over something most reviews of this book never name.

What Is Does It Hurt? About?

Two genres run at once here and the book is sold as only one of them. The front half of the pitch is forced proximity, which reaches its purest form on an actual desert island: two people who despise each other, nowhere to go, and a reason neither can be honest. The back half is small-scale horror — an abandoned island with a lighthouse keeper on it and something wrong underneath. Retailer copy calls it “An Enemies to Lovers Romance” and stops there.

Sawyer is introduced through what she is running from and Enzo through what he thinks he is owed; he lures her onto his boat pursuing revenge, a storm does the rest, and roughly a month of survival follows. The narration is dual first person, which lets the book hold a secret in one head while the other acts on a false picture — the engine of the deception plot.

The LRR Decision Box

Genre Dark contemporary romance, male–female
Subgenre Survival / island forced proximity with a horror-suspense subplot
Series None — filed by the author under Standalones
Standalone? Yes. No prior reading required, no sequel needed
Romance dynamic Enemies to lovers built on a revenge deception, then forced proximity
Heat 5/5 — romance.io’s top band, “Explicit and plentiful” (459 raters)
Darkness High, and mostly located outside the couple — see below
POV First person, dual (Sawyer and Enzo, alternating)
Ending HEA, no cliffhanger, all threads closed
Page count 432 (Kindle edition)
Kindle Unlimited Included — verified 21 August 2026
Audiobook English edition exists (Troy Duran, Michelle Sparks); not included with a KU borrow
Major warnings Author-named: dub/non-con, incest and pedophilia, rape and other abuse, near-death, suicide and ideation. Full comparison below

What Makes This Dark Island Romance Work

  • It finishes. After the Cat and Mouse Duet — where book one stops mid-abduction and book two is compulsory — a Carlton book that resolves in a single volume is a real difference, and reviewers say so unprompted.
  • The island does structural work, not scenery work. Forced proximity usually has to be engineered with a snowstorm or a broken lift. Here the confinement is total and lasts about a month of story time, which is why the hostility has somewhere to go.
  • The suspense layer is what reviewers actually praise. The lighthouse mystery is repeatedly named as the thing that lifts the book above a standard two-hander, and one review frames the novel as a genuine hybrid of suspense, mystery and horror.
  • Both leads arrive with a history. A fugitive identity thief and a man abandoned to shark research is a stranger pairing than the blurb suggests, and the backstory-driven characterisation draws credit even from reviewers who found the leads unpleasant.
  • It is the accessible Carlton. One reviewer calls it markedly easier to read than the Adeline books while being just as good — a single judgement, not a consensus.

Book Synopsis

Sawyer has spent years being other people. She lives on stolen identities and has built a life out of leaving — which works until she takes from the wrong man. Enzo has been looking for her, and when he finds her he does not call the police. He offers her a boat.

What she does not know is that the trip is the point — Enzo boarded her with revenge in mind, and the open water is where he means to collect. Then a storm removes the choice from both of them. The boat goes down, and they wash up on an island off any route, with no signal, no supplies and no one coming.

They are also not alone. Someone lives on the island, in and around the lighthouse, and has for a long time. What Sawyer and Enzo have to work out — while starving, and while a hostility neither can put down turns into something neither wants to name — is which of the three of them they should actually be afraid of.

My Review

The genuinely good idea here is the collision. Carlton did not write a beach romance with a spooky lighthouse in the background; she wrote two books and ran them at each other, and the friction between an extreme-heat enemies-to-lovers arc and a small, unpleasant horror story is the most interesting thing on the page.

Does It Hurt? by H.D. Carlton book cover

The second strength is the one Carlton readers care about most: this book ends. All threads close, there is a happy ending, and nothing is held back to sell a second volume. From an author whose most famous work strands you mid-abduction, that is not a small thing, and it is the practical reason to pick this over Haunting Adeline if you only want one book.

Where it struggles is the middle, and this is the dominant complaint rather than our private gripe. Reviewers describe character indecision stretching passages out, love scenes turning repetitive across four hundred-plus pages, and leads who are hard to like for roughly the first two hundred. A separate recurring objection is that the lighthouse plot — the element other reviewers praise most — is confusing, with one reviewer saying plainly that its logic did not hold together. That is an unusual shape for a reception: the same subplot is both the best-reviewed and the least understood part of the book.

The expectation worth resetting is the darkness one, and it cuts both ways. If you came because this is billed as the gentler Carlton, the author’s own list names incest, pedophilia and non-consent. If you came for the reputation and want the couple to be brutal to each other, most of that content is not in the romance at all.

My honest note: A strong hybrid premise executed at uneven length, rescued by an ending that actually arrives. If a saggy middle ruins a book for you, this will frustrate you. If you want extreme heat inside a real plot and want to be done in one volume, it is the right Carlton to start with.

Element In Does It Hurt?
Central relationship Sawyer & Enzo — identity thief and the man hunting her, enemies to lovers by way of a revenge deception
Core tropes Forced proximity, enemies to lovers, survival, revenge, possessive hero, morally grey leads, dual POV
Setting An uncharted island with an occupied lighthouse, roughly a month of story time
Heat level 5/5 — explicit and plentiful
Series Standalone. No series, no sequel, no prior reading
Content notes Author-named dub/non-con, incest and pedophilia, rape and other abuse, near-death, suicide and ideation; readers additionally flag murder, confinement and body horror at volume

How Dark and Spicy Is Does It Hurt?

romance.io puts it in band 5 of 5 — the top tier, “Explicit and plentiful” — across 459 raters, and StoryGraph readers flag sexual content 300 times at the graphic tier, the largest single tag on the book. The heat is not a garnish and not concentrated in two set pieces: enthusiastic and critical reviews alike describe it running throughout, the critical ones adding that it turns repetitive by the back third.

The element worth flagging is consent, and it is worth flagging because the author flags it herself — “Mentions Of Dub/Non con” appears on her own published list. In practice reviewers treat it as characterisation rather than as a violation; one describes Enzo luring Sawyer aboard for revenge and then punishing her in ways she calls questionable and disturbing, while framing the arc as a deliberate authorial choice. At the same band, our reviews of Haunting Adeline and Her Soul to Take cover very different consent framings.

Where the Darkness Actually Sits

This is the thing we could not find stated anywhere else, and it is the most useful sentence in this review: the book’s most extreme content is not in the romance.

The warning lists are alarming in a specific way. Incest and pedophilia sit on the author’s own list, and StoryGraph readers put incest at 153 graphic, 80 moderate and 39 minor — 272 readers stopping to apply an incest tag to what is marketed as a shipwreck romance, which makes it the tenth-heaviest graphic tag on the book, ahead of blood, confinement and kidnapping. Read that cold and you would reasonably assume the couple is the problem.

They are not. The one review we found that addresses this directly attributes the pedophilia, incest and graphic-violence content specifically to the haunted-lighthouse thread — the island’s resident and what he has been doing there — rather than to Sawyer and Enzo.

Two caveats. That placement rests on a single source we have not verified against the text. And it does not make the content lighter — a reader avoiding that material should avoid this book whichever plot it belongs to. What it changes is the kind of book you are agreeing to read, which is exactly what the warning tallies flatten away.

Content Warnings: What the Author Says and What Readers Say

These are two different sources and should never be merged.

Author-published list, from hdcarlton.com, quoted verbatim: “Graphic Sexual Situations, Graphic Violence / Gore, Mentions Of Dub/Non con, Mentions Of Incest / Pedophilia, Mentions Of Rape And Other Abuse, Near Death Situations, Stranded in the Ocean, Mentions of Suicide, Suicide Ideation.” She publishes a list per title on her own site, which puts her ahead of most authors in this category, and she names the heaviest material herself rather than leaving readers to find it.

Reader-tagged, StoryGraph graphic tier: sexual content 300, murder 254, sexual assault 241, violence 215, rape 197, death 181, sexual violence 175, emotional abuse 156, incest 153, child abuse 129, confinement 120, kidnapping 95, torture 88, body horror 62, pedophilia 28.

Where the two diverge: not on what — Carlton names essentially all of it — but on weight. “Mentions” does a lot of work on her list and does not convey a book where 197 readers flagged rape at the graphic tier. Read her list for whether the content is present; read the tallies for how much. StoryGraph splits data across editions, so every number above is a floor.

Does It Hurt? vs Haunting Adeline: Which One, and In What Order?

Two questions we see asked constantly and answered nowhere in text: which is darker, and which should you read first. Here is what the data supports.

Does It Hurt? Haunting Adeline
Heat band (romance.io) 5/5 5/5
romance.io dark-romance taggers 26 80
romance.io average 3.86 (459) 3.65 (1,103)
Goodreads 3.88 (286,156) See our review
Structure Standalone, resolves Book 1 of a duet, ends mid-story
Where the darkness sits Largely in a horror subplot In the central relationship
Reading order None required. They share no characters and no plot

On darkness: Haunting Adeline is tagged dark by three times as many readers, and its darkness is aimed at the heroine by the hero. Does It Hurt? carries arguably more extreme content but points most of it away from the couple. On order: there is none. Start here if you want to be finished in one book. Start with Haunting Adeline if you want the relationship itself to be the dangerous part — and budget for Hunting Adeline immediately after, because book one does not end.

Who Should Read This Book?

You’ll likely love it if: you want band-5 heat inside an actual suspense plot rather than a pure two-hander, you like forced proximity taken to its literal extreme, you have been putting off Carlton because of the duet cliffhanger, or you read dark romance for atmosphere and dread as much as for the couple.

You may want to skip it if: a saggy middle and repetitive love scenes across four hundred-plus pages will lose you, you need to like the leads early, on-page incest or pedophilia content is a hard line regardless of which plot it belongs to, or you want the darkness to be between the couple and will find a horror subplot a distraction.

In short: a strong premise and a real ending, bought at the cost of a middle that a lot of readers wanted cut.

What Readers Are Actually Saying (August 2026)

Start with what is not there. No trade outlet has reviewed this book — searches of Publishers Weekly, Kirkus, Library Journal, Smart Bitches and All About Romance return nothing, the normal outcome for a self-published title. Reddit is not reachable from where we research, so we make no claim about it. What remains is a large, quiet Goodreads base and a handful of blogs, most from 2022 and 2023.

Why readers rate it: the suspense layer comes up first and most consistently, with the lighthouse mystery named as what raises the book above a standard enemies-to-lovers and comparisons reaching for early Stephen King. Second is the chemistry and the heat. Third, specific to this author, is that it resolves — the absence of a cliffhanger is cited as a feature, which tells you what her readers expect. One reviewer finds it materially easier to read than the Adeline duet and just as good.

What they complain about: the middle, above everything. The mechanism is character indecision — stretches where neither lead commits — compounded by love scenes several readers say become repetitive. Second, likeability: one reviewer puts it at roughly two hundred pages before the leads become bearable. Third, and this is the genuine split, the lighthouse plot: the same subplot enthusiasts call the best thing in the book is the one a critical reviewer found confusing and logically incomplete.

On consent, the quiet is the finding: the author flags dub-con and non-con herself and a study guide notes dubious consent, but the review corpus largely does not litigate it. The author discloses more concern about consent than her readers publicly express — the reverse of the usual pattern on this shelf.

The standalone question worth asking first: it is genuinely standalone — Carlton files it apart from her duets, Goodreads carries no series line, and Audible does not place it in a series. Where you go next matters, because her better-known work is structured the opposite way: the Cat and Mouse Duet is a two-book commitment, not a sample.

Is It Worth It on Kindle Unlimited?

Yes, and it is one of the better uses of a borrow slot on this shelf. We checked the Amazon product page directly on 21 August 2026 and the Kindle edition carries the Kindle Unlimited badge at $0.00 for subscribers. We verify on the individual product page rather than a category listing, because those go stale and enrolment lapses without announcement.

The case for spending a borrow here is that it ends. Much of the dark romance in Kindle Unlimited is book one of something, and a borrow that commits you to two more titles costs more than it looks. This is 432 pages, one volume, resolved. For more from the same shelf, our dark romance on Kindle Unlimited page verifies every title individually, and the spicy romance page covers the same heat band more broadly.

One thing a borrow does not include: the audiobook. An English audio edition exists, narrated by Troy Duran and Michelle Sparks, but audio access is separate from Kindle Unlimited. The only edition Libro.fm currently stocks is the German-language production, so an English audio buyer will need a different shop.

Frequently Asked Questions

Is Does It Hurt? on Kindle Unlimited?

Yes. We verified it on the individual Amazon product page on 21 August 2026. Catalogues change without notice, so check the badge before you borrow.

Is Does It Hurt? a standalone?

Yes. Carlton’s own site lists it under Standalones, and neither Goodreads nor the Audible listing places it in a series. It resolves in one volume and requires no prior reading.

Does Does It Hurt? have a happy ending?

Yes, and there is no cliffhanger. A plot-complete study guide describes Sawyer and Enzo married after the rescue, and an independent review describes the pair reconciled and leaving the island together.

Is Does It Hurt? darker than Haunting Adeline?

Not in the way most readers mean. Haunting Adeline carries the dark-romance tag from 80 romance.io taggers against 26 here, and its darkness is aimed at the heroine by the hero. Here, most of the extreme material belongs to a horror subplot. No reading order applies.

What are the content warnings for Does It Hurt?

The author names graphic sexual situations, graphic violence and gore, dub/non-con, incest and pedophilia, rape and other abuse, near-death situations, being stranded at sea, and suicide and ideation. StoryGraph readers separately tag sexual content 300, murder 254, rape 197 and incest 153 at the graphic tier. Two sources; we keep them apart.

Which chapters are the spicy ones?

We do not publish one, and would treat any you find with suspicion. We have not read the book to review standard and no verifiable public list exists, so chapter numbers would be guesswork. The heat runs continuously rather than clustering.

Is Does It Hurt? horror or romance?

Both, and the retailer copy sells only one of them. Reviewers who finished it describe a hybrid whose horror thread several rate above the romance. Expect a suspense plot, not a two-hander on a beach.

If You Loved Does It Hurt?, Read These Next

For the same author at her most notorious, Haunting Adeline is the same heat band with the danger pointed at the heroine instead of a subplot — go in knowing it is half a story. For the survival-horror side rather than the romance side, Her Soul to Take by Harley Laroux is band 5 with a genuine cult-horror plot and the best-run consent framework we have found on this shelf. And for another book whose captivity premise turns out to be the first act of something else entirely, Still Beating spends most of its length on the aftermath rather than the basement. All three are verified in dark romance on Kindle Unlimited, and the rest of our coverage lives in Book Reviews.

The Bottom Line

Does It Hurt? sets out to run a survival horror story and an extreme-heat enemies-to-lovers romance in the same four hundred pages. What works: the island is doing real structural work rather than acting as scenery, the lighthouse thread gives the book a spine that most two-handers lack, and it resolves completely in one volume with an HEA. What does not: the middle sags on character indecision, the love scenes turn repetitive across the back third, and the subplot that carries the book is also the one readers most often say they could not follow. Worth a Kindle Unlimited borrow if you want band-5 heat with an actual plot underneath and you want to be finished when you finish. Check Does It Hurt? on Amazon →

The Eikna Overall Ranking

On the Eikna scale, Does It Hurt? ranks as a hybrid survival-horror dark romance — structurally complete and unusually well disclosed by its author, held back by a slack middle, and best approached for the island and the mystery rather than for a relationship that takes two hundred pages to become bearable.

The Evidence Scorecard

Scores derived from named public evidence — rating distributions, crowd tag counts, the author’s warning list and six signed reviews — not from a full LRR reading of this title.

Overall ★★★★☆ 3.7/5

  • ✓ 3.88 Goodreads average across 286,156 ratings
  • ✓ Amazon 4.2, StoryGraph 3.78, 3% did-not-finish
  • ✓ Resolves in one volume, unusually for this author
  • ✓ A middle a lot of readers wanted cut

Romance ★★★☆☆ 3.6/5

  • ✓ Chemistry named as a primary draw
  • ✓ Built on a real deception, not a misunderstanding
  • ✓ Dual first person keeps both sides live
  • ✓ Leads hard to like for two hundred pages

Characters ★★★★☆ 3.7/5

  • ✓ Identity thief and abandoned shark researcher
  • ✓ Credited even by reviewers who disliked them
  • ✓ Lighthouse resident gives the island a third presence
  • ✓ Early Enzo described as abusive, read as intentional

Writing ★★★★☆ 3.6/5

  • ✓ No dominant prose complaint in the corpus
  • ✓ Atmosphere compared to early Stephen King
  • ✓ Pacing carried one reviewer through in two days
  • ✓ Profanity called gratuitous; sensory detail overwhelms

Emotional Impact ★★★★☆ 3.8/5

  • ✓ One review framed the book as an emotional shipwreck
  • ✓ Survival stakes give the romance real cost
  • ✓ Horror thread genuinely frightening for several readers
  • ✓ Diluted by repetition in the final third

Heat Level ★★★★★ 5/5

  • ✓ romance.io band 5 of 5, 459 raters
  • ✓ StoryGraph sexual content 300 graphic — largest tag
  • ✓ Continuous through the book, not clustered
  • ✓ Author flags dub/non-con on her own list

Ending ★★★★☆ 4.2/5

  • ✓ HEA confirmed by two plot-complete sources
  • ✓ No cliffhanger; loose ends tied off here
  • ✓ No sequel or prior reading required
  • ✓ Lighthouse resolution called logically incomplete

Re-read Value ★★★☆☆ 3.4/5

  • ✓ Island atmosphere rewards a return
  • ✓ English audiobook exists for a second pass
  • ✓ Complete arc means no sequel pulling readers back
  • ✓ 432 pages with a slack middle discourages it

The Runway Affair Review | C.L. Smoke | Is It Worth Reading?

★★★★½ 4.3 / 5 (calculated from Amazon & Goodreads reader ratings — 153 combined)

Overall: 8.5/10 Romance: 8.7/10
Characters: 8.4/10 Writing: 7.8/10
Emotion: 8.9/10 Heat: 8.0/10
Ending: 8.3/10 Re-read value: 7.9/10

A first-love reunion that burns down to the studs — small-town heartbreak, eight years of silence, and a second chance tangled up in a murder mystery.

If you love angsty, high-heat reunion romance with a suspense edge, The Runway Affair by C.L. Smoke belongs on your list. Adeline and Scarlett were teenage soulmates trapped in a small, religious town, torn apart before they could escape together. Eight years later a desperate Adeline takes a nanny job — and opens the door to find Scarlett, now a widowed, award-winning fashion designer raising twins. What starts as unfinished business reignites into something neither can walk away from.

Our take: This is C.L. Smoke’s debut, and it reads like one — big, messy, emotionally maximalist, and occasionally repetitive — but the raw feeling and the spice carry it. Readers who want the hopeless-romantic reunion fantasy with real heat and a murder-mystery subplot to keep the pages turning will find a lot to love, as long as they read the content warnings carefully first.

The Evidence Scorecard

Here’s what real readers across Amazon and Goodreads consistently say about The Runway Affair — the praise and the honest criticism, sourced from reader reviews.

Writing & Voice ★★★★☆

Evidence:

  • ✓ Told in dual first-person POV (Adeline and Scarlett), which Goodreads readers say lets you feel both sides of the heartbreak intensely.
  • ✓ Reviewers note the prose is emotionally raw and immersive — “CL Smoke doesn’t miss” is a recurring sentiment from fans of her later work.
  • ✓ The most common criticism: it’s “very repetitive at times,” a debut-novel roughness several readers flag even while enjoying the story.
  • ✓ At 508 pages it runs long; some readers loved the slow build of the origin story, others felt it could have been tightened.

Dialogue & Banter ★★★★☆

Evidence:

  • ✓ The push-pull between a guarded Scarlett and a desperate-but-proud Adeline drives tense, charged exchanges rather than light banter.
  • ✓ Readers describe the emotional register as “hurt, anger, longing, jealousy, possessiveness” — the dialogue leans into confrontation and confession.
  • ✓ The nanny-employer dynamic keeps conversations loaded with what’s unsaid across eight years of silence.
  • ✓ Those wanting a breezy rom-com tone should note this is angst-forward, not quippy — the wit takes a back seat to raw feeling.

Chemistry & Romance ★★★★☆

Evidence:

  • ✓ The first-love-reunited premise lands hard for readers — “I fell in love with Addie and Scar right away” is a common reaction.
  • ✓ The physical spark is immediate; reviewers repeatedly say the attraction reignites the moment they touch.
  • ✓ The possessive, all-consuming intensity is a feature for readers who love obsessive second-chance energy.
  • ✓ A minority found the reconciliation fast given the depth of the betrayal — forgiveness comes on emotion more than slow rebuilding.

Heat ★★★★☆

Evidence:

  • ✓ Readers rate the spice high — roughly 4 out of 5 chili peppers — with one reviewer memorably noting “the spice, it was spicing.”
  • ✓ The intimate scenes are frequent and explicit, well past fade-to-black.
  • ✓ The heat is tied to emotional stakes rather than being gratuitous, which readers appreciate.
  • ✓ Content note: alongside the on-page romance there is a detailed sexual-abuse flashback — see content warnings; several readers caution it’s more graphic than the warning implies.

Emotion & Depth ★★★★☆

Evidence:

  • ✓ The origin story — two girls in love in a repressive small town — is described as devastating, especially the fallout from Scarlett’s father.
  • ✓ Grief threads through the present timeline: Scarlett is a widow raising twins, adding weight beyond the romance.
  • ✓ Readers call it emotionally heavy and cathartic, “lots of emotions” delivered without restraint.
  • ✓ The darkness is real; this is closer to the edge of dark romance than a cozy reunion, so sensitive readers should go in prepared.

Pacing ★★★★☆

Evidence:

  • ✓ The dual-timeline structure (teen love story + present-day reunion) keeps momentum for readers who enjoy seeing “how it all began.”
  • ✓ The murder-and-stalker subplot injects tension and “kept the pages turning” per reviewers.
  • ✓ The chief pacing complaint is repetition and length — some middle stretches drag before the suspense ramps up.
  • ✓ Fans of slow-burn emotional payoff rate the pacing higher than readers wanting a tighter, faster read.

Ending ★★★★☆

Evidence:

  • ✓ Delivers the HEA reunion readers came for, resolving both the romance and the mystery threads.
  • ✓ The suspense subplot’s resolution is called “interesting and entertaining,” giving the finale stakes beyond the relationship.
  • ✓ Some readers wanted a touch more aftercare given how heavy the trauma runs, but most found the close satisfying.
  • ✓ The forgiveness arc lands emotionally for fans of the possessive-devotion trope.

Re-read & Comfort Value ★★★★☆

Evidence:

  • ✓ Devoted C.L. Smoke readers say this stands “right up there with her other work” and became a reason they now auto-buy her.
  • ✓ The intense emotional payoff makes it a re-read for fans of angsty reunion romance.
  • ✓ Its heavy themes make it less of a light comfort re-read and more of an occasional emotional gut-punch.
  • ✓ Newer readers less attached to the author sometimes rated it around 3.75 stars — enjoyable but rough around the edges.

Quick Facts

Title The Runway Affair: A Second Chance Lesbian Romance
Author C.L. Smoke
Genre Sapphic Second-Chance Romance / Romantic Suspense
Length 508 pages
Published December 26, 2025 (originally 2024)
Heat level High (approx. 4/5)

You’ll Love This If…

  • ✓ You want a first-love-reunited story with eight years of longing between the leads.
  • ✓ You like your second-chance romance high on angst, possessiveness, and raw emotion.
  • ✓ A murder-mystery subplot woven through the love story sounds like a bonus, not a distraction.
  • ✓ You enjoy explicit, high-heat intimacy tied to deep emotional stakes.
  • ✓ You’re already a C.L. Smoke fan or want to read the debut that started her catalog.

Avoid If…

  • You’re sensitive to detailed depictions of sexual abuse, even in flashback.
  • You prefer tightly edited, fast-moving novels — this one is long and can be repetitive.
  • You want a light, low-angst rom-com rather than a heavy, dark-leaning drama.
  • Slow-to-earn forgiveness after major betrayal is a dealbreaker for you.

Book Synopsis

Adeline Grace and Scarlett Marie were each other’s whole world as teenagers — two girls in love in a small, religious town, counting the days until they could run away together. Then everything shattered, and they were forced apart, their questions left unanswered for eight long years.

Now Adeline is barely surviving, drifting through dead-end jobs until she takes a position as a nanny — and the woman who opens the door is Scarlett: a widowed, award-winning fashion designer and multi-millionaire raising young twins alone. Neither can forgive, and neither can look away. As old feelings reignite and a dangerous mystery closes in around Scarlett’s glittering new life, the two must decide whether a love this scarred can be rebuilt — or whether it will burn them both down again.

My Review

The Runway Affair by C.L. Smoke book coverThe Runway Affair wears its heart — and its bruises — on its sleeve. As C.L. Smoke’s debut, it’s an emotionally maximalist book: it wants you to feel the teenage love, the eight-year ache, the fury and the forgiveness, and it mostly gets there through sheer intensity. If you come to sapphic romance for catharsis rather than polish, this delivers.

The dual first-person structure is the book’s biggest strength. Splitting the narration between Adeline’s desperation and Scarlett’s guarded grief lets you understand why two people who clearly still love each other keep hurting each other. The origin-story timeline — the small-town repression, the religious pressure, the betrayal that tore them apart — is genuinely devastating, and it earns the possessive, all-consuming reunion energy that follows.

It isn’t flawless, and readers should know that going in. The prose is repetitive in places and the 508-page runtime sags in the middle before the murder-and-stalker subplot tightens the screws. The reconciliation also moves fast given the depth of the wound between them; forgiveness here runs on emotion more than slow, careful rebuilding. And the content is heavy — a detailed sexual-abuse flashback in particular is more graphic than the content note suggests, so please check the warnings below before diving in.

Still, for its target reader — someone who loves angsty, spicy, first-love-reunited romance with a suspense hook — it’s a compelling, bingeable ride, and it’s easy to see why it turned so many readers into C.L. Smoke loyalists.

Romance Profile

Pairing F/F (Adeline & Scarlett)
Trope Second chance / first love reunited / employer-nanny
Heat High — explicit, approx. 4/5
Angst Very high
Ending HEA with mystery resolved

Emotional Profile

  • ✓ Longing and yearning across eight years of separation
  • ✓ Grief — Scarlett’s widowhood and single parenthood
  • ✓ Anger, jealousy, and possessiveness in the reunion
  • ✓ Trauma and survival, handled with dark intensity
  • ✓ Ultimately cathartic, hard-won love

Content Warnings

  • Sexual abuse (detailed flashback — more graphic than the book’s own note implies)
  • Murder / stalking / suspense peril
  • Death of a spouse; grief
  • Religious trauma and homophobia (small-town backstory)
  • Explicit sexual content

Book DNA

Vibe Angsty, obsessive, emotionally raw
Setting Small-town past & high-fashion present
Pace Slow-building, suspense-driven finish
Comps Dark-leaning sapphic reunion romance with a thriller edge
Best for Readers who want spice, angst, and a mystery in one

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About the Author

C.L. Smoke is an indie author known for emotionally intense, spicy romance across sapphic and dark-romance subgenres, including the Hades Duet, the Moretti Mafia Duet, and the Vexxed Vipers series. The Runway Affair is her debut novel, originally released in 2024 and later revised and re-published in December 2025. Her work is characterized by high heat, heavy themes, and possessive, all-in love stories.

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Frequently Asked Questions

Is The Runway Affair a standalone?

Yes. It’s a complete standalone second-chance romance with its own HEA — no cliffhanger and no required reading order.

Is there a happy ending?

Yes, it ends with a happily-ever-after reunion, and the suspense subplot is resolved as well.

How spicy is it?

Quite spicy — readers rate it around 4 out of 5 chili peppers, with frequent explicit scenes tied to the emotional arc.

What are the main tropes?

Second chance, first love reunited, small-town-to-riches, employer/nanny proximity, and a romantic-suspense murder mystery.

Are there serious content warnings?

Yes. It includes a detailed sexual-abuse flashback, murder and stalking, spousal death and grief, and religious trauma — please read the content warnings before starting.

Is this book actually sapphic?

Yes — it’s a wholly F/F romance between Adeline and Scarlett with a sapphic HEA.

Is it part of a series?

No, it stands alone, though C.L. Smoke has several other sapphic and dark-romance titles.

Where can I buy The Runway Affair?

It’s available on Amazon in Kindle (including Kindle Unlimited) and paperback formats.

Final Verdict

The Runway Affair is a raw, spicy, angst-soaked debut that trades polish for pure emotional intensity. It’s repetitive and long, and its dark themes demand a careful look at the content warnings — but for readers who crave a first-love reunion with real heat and a murder mystery humming underneath, it’s a bingeable, feelings-first ride. A rough-edged but genuinely affecting 4.3 / 5.

Where to Buy

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Go Around Review | E.J. Noyes | Is It Worth Reading?

★★★★½ 4.4 / 5 (calculated from Amazon, Goodreads & romance.io reader ratings — 3,254 combined)

Overall 8.6/10 Romance 8.8/10
Characters 8.7/10 Writing 8.7/10
Emotion 8.5/10 Heat 8.0/10
Ending 8.4/10 Re-read value 8.4/10

A second-chance celebrity romance with a stalker-thriller edge — an air marshal, her actress ex, forced back together at 30,000 feet and then under one roof.

If you love exes-to-lovers stories with real suspense woven in, Go Around by E.J. Noyes is a standout. Noyes is one of the most consistently praised authors in lesfic, and this Bella Books release pairs her signature emotional depth with a genuine page-turning threat.

Our take: This is a smart blend of two genres — a tender, mature second-chance romance and a taut romantic-suspense plot about a dangerous fan. The chemistry is excellent and the communication refreshingly adult. It occasionally circles the same relationship beats, but the stalker storyline keeps the momentum humming toward a genuinely tense climax.

The Evidence Scorecard

Here is what reviews across Amazon, Goodreads, and romance.io consistently reveal — the praise and the honest caveats.

★★★★½ Writing & Voice

Evidence:

  • ✓ Reviewers repeatedly call Noyes “one of the best writers in the lesfic genre” and “a master at writing in first-person point of view.”
  • ✓ A NetGalley editorial review praised her ability to “craft such emotional stories” with deep insight into her leads.
  • ✓ Readers love the single, close first-person voice (Avery’s), which makes her interiority vivid.
  • ✓ Because it’s Avery’s POV only, a few readers wished for more direct access to Elise’s side.

★★★★½ Dialogue & Banter

Evidence:

  • ✓ Conversations are described as “real, raw, and deep with a little sarcasm and humor beneath the surface.”
  • ✓ UK reviewers highlight “a lot of banter and laughter, as well as upset and soul searching.”
  • ✓ The mature, honest communication between the leads is a frequently cited strength.
  • ✓ Honest caveat: some felt the relationship talks “went around in circles” before the final resolution.

★★★★½ Chemistry & Romance

Evidence:

  • ✓ “The chemistry between the two as well as the love they had for one another was palpable” — a representative Amazon verdict.
  • ✓ Readers found the reconciliation “natural,” rooted in undeniable compatibility and missed friendship.
  • ✓ The forced-proximity setup (Elise moving in for safety) reignites the spark convincingly.
  • ✓ A few wanted a bit more grovel from Elise given she’s the one who left.

★★★★½ Heat

Evidence:

  • ✓ romance.io rates steam 4/5 (explicit, open door) — genuinely spicy.
  • ✓ Readers note “plenty of hot scenes” and “beautifully written” love scenes.
  • ✓ The heat is emotionally charged, reflecting the leads’ long history together.
  • ✓ Readers who prefer closed-door romance should be aware of the on-page content.

★★★★½ Emotion & Depth

Evidence:

  • ✓ “This second chance love story had me crying and filled with hope” — a common emotional response.
  • ✓ The closeted-actress conflict (Elise fearing her career if she comes out) gives the breakup real stakes.
  • ✓ Noyes handles both women’s regret and hurt with equal weight, so Elise stays sympathetic.
  • ✓ The bond with Avery’s dog Bennett adds warmth reviewers adored (“Bennett is a superhero!”).

★★★★½ Pacing

Evidence:

  • ✓ “There was not a boring moment in this book” — the dual romance/thriller engine keeps pages turning.
  • ✓ The stalker subplot is “omnipresent” and “really comes to life in the end” in a chaotic, gripping climax.
  • ✓ One reader admitted reading faster and faster as tension ratcheted — “always a sign of a good page turner.”
  • ✓ Honest caveat: a few found the middle a touch repetitive and the overall arc “predictable.”

★★★★½ Ending

Evidence:

  • ✓ Delivers a satisfying HEA that resolves both the romance and the stalker threat.
  • ✓ The suspense climax is singled out as a highlight — “the bookends of exciting action were chef’s kiss.”
  • ✓ Readers felt getting the couple back together “felt natural” rather than forced.
  • ✓ A low-angst resolution — great for some, a little too tidy for readers craving more drama.

★★★★½ Re-read & Comfort Value

Evidence:

  • ✓ Multiple readers add it to their “re-read pile,” and Noyes’ books draw repeat reads generally.
  • ✓ The Abby Craden audiobook is highly recommended (“Abby and EJ Noyes is a no brainer combo”).
  • ✓ Easter-egg references to Noyes’ other books (e.g. Alone) delight returning fans.
  • ✓ A dependable comfort read for second-chance and celebrity-romance lovers.

Quick Facts

Author E.J. Noyes
Published December 1, 2021 (Bella Books)
Length 319 pages
Steam Level 4/5 (explicit, open door)
Tropes Second chance, exes to lovers, celebrity romance, forced proximity, romantic suspense
POV Single POV (Avery), first person
Ending HEA

You’ll Love This If…

  • ✓ You want a second-chance romance with a genuine suspense subplot.
  • ✓ Celebrity/closeted-star romances are your thing.
  • ✓ You love mature, honest communication between leads (no third-act miscommunication trope).
  • ✓ Forced proximity + exes reigniting an old spark is your catnip.
  • ✓ You’re already an E.J. Noyes fan — or want a great place to start.

Avoid If…

  • You dislike stalker/threat storylines (the suspense is central).
  • You want high angst — this is a lower-angst, warmer read.
  • Circular relationship conversations frustrate you.
  • You prefer dual POV; this is Avery’s single first-person POV.

Book Synopsis

Federal Air Marshal Avery Weston is almost over her ex — award-winning actress and current It Girl Elise Hayes, who walked out on their relationship fifteen months ago. Then Elise is seated right next to her on a flight, and every ounce of hard-won emotional progress evaporates. The reunion turns dangerous fast when an overzealous fan targets Elise mid-air.

With a stalker still at large, Elise begs to stay with Avery until the threat is resolved — after all, no one knows Elise Hayes ever had a girlfriend. A few weeks under one roof reignites a spark that never really died, and Elise’s genuine regret makes Avery’s old resentments harder to hold. But love and chemistry weren’t enough the first time. If they’re going to land this relationship on the second approach, they’ll have to face everything that pulled them apart — and survive whoever is hunting Elise.

My Review

Go Around by E.J. Noyes book coverE.J. Noyes has a knack for making second chances feel earned, and Go Around is a great example — with the clever twist of bolting a romantic-suspense plot onto the reunion. The “meet-cute” is an air marshal recognizing her ex in the next seat right before a fan attacks mid-flight, and that hook sets the tone: this book is as much a page-turning thriller as it is a love story.

The heart of it is Avery and Elise relearning each other while a stalker looms. What I appreciated most is how adult it feels. These are two grown women who actually talk — about the closeting that ended them, about fame, about fear — instead of manufacturing drama through silence. Elise, who did the leaving, is written with enough regret and context that she stays sympathetic, and Avery’s guardedness feels real rather than stubborn.

It isn’t perfect. Because we’re locked in Avery’s single POV, Elise can feel slightly held at arm’s length, and a few of the reconciliation conversations do loop over the same ground before things finally click. It’s also lower on angst than some second-chance readers may want — one reviewer fairly called it “predictable.”

But the chemistry is excellent, the heat is well-earned, Avery’s dog Bennett is a scene-stealer, and the suspense climax genuinely had me reading faster. As a warm, smart, high-tension comfort read, it more than earns its 4.4.

Romance Profile

Pairing F/F (Avery & Elise)
Central trope Second chance / exes to lovers (celebrity romance)
Heat level High (explicit, open door)
Conflict Past breakup over closeting; a dangerous stalker
POV Single POV (Avery), first person

Emotional Profile

  • ✓ Tense — a real suspense thread runs throughout.
  • ✓ Warm — mature, hopeful, low-angst reconciliation.
  • ✓ Swoony — palpable chemistry and heat.
  • ✓ Heartfelt — readers report crying and rooting hard for the couple.

Content Warnings

  • Stalking and threats / third-party violence
  • Queerphobia and closeting pressure (industry-driven)
  • On-page physical assault (the mid-flight attack)
  • References to past heartbreak / abandonment

Book DNA

Vibe Tense, warm, swoony
Setting Los Angeles & in-flight; a shared home under threat
Pace Brisk, page-turning, suspense-driven
Comps Harper Bliss celebrity romance; Rachel Lacey suspense
Best for Readers who want reunion romance plus a thriller edge

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For more like this, browse our full guide to Sapphic Second Chance Romance Books, and for more books with a thriller edge, don’t miss our Lesbian Romantic Suspense roundup.

About the Author

E.J. Noyes is a best-selling, award-winning Australian-born author now living in New Zealand with her wife and cat. Widely regarded as one of the strongest voices in contemporary lesfic, she’s known for emotionally intense, first-person romances including Alone, Gold, Turbulence, and the Ask Tell series. Her next Bella Books novel, Crash Into You, is on the way.

Read more E.J. Noyes reviews →

Frequently Asked Questions

Is Go Around a sapphic romance?

Yes. It is an F/F second-chance romance between Federal Air Marshal Avery Weston and actress Elise Hayes, exes who reconnect after a 15-month breakup.

Does Go Around have a happy ending?

Yes, it delivers a full HEA. Both the romance and the stalker storyline are resolved, and readers describe getting the couple back together as feeling natural and earned.

How steamy is Go Around?

It is steamy. romance.io rates it 4/5 (explicit, open door), with several well-written on-page love scenes.

Is Go Around a romantic suspense?

Yes, it blends genres. Alongside the reunion romance, a dangerous stalker targeting Elise drives an ongoing suspense plot that peaks in a tense climax.

Is Go Around a standalone?

Yes, it is a complete standalone with its own HEA. It contains fun Easter-egg references to other E.J. Noyes books, but you don’t need to read them first.

Is it single or dual POV?

Single POV, first person, told entirely from Avery’s perspective, though Elise’s emotions and struggle come through clearly.

Why did Avery and Elise break up?

Elise ended things fifteen months earlier out of fear that publicly coming out would derail her acting career. That closeting conflict is at the core of their second-chance arc.

Who will enjoy Go Around most?

Fans of second-chance and celebrity romances, forced proximity, mature communication, and romance with a genuine thriller edge — and anyone who loves E.J. Noyes.

Final Verdict

Go Around is a smart, satisfying mash-up of second-chance celebrity romance and romantic suspense. E.J. Noyes gives us palpable chemistry, grown-up communication, and a stalker plot that keeps the pages flying. It runs a little low on angst and occasionally circles the same relationship beats, but the emotional payoff and the tense climax more than make up for it. For reunion-romance and suspense fans alike, it’s absolutely worth reading — a strong 4.4 / 5.

Where to Buy

Buy Go Around on Amazon

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